So I hate when Ava uses the words fat, chubby, big. I don’t want her to ever say something to someone and hurt their feelings. It isn’t fun. After I blew out my abs after these two girls, she once said “it looks like you have a baby in your tummy!” Yeah, I have to watch how I stand.
Anyway I don’t want her to have body image issues and I never complain about my appearance in front of her. That’s where it all begins. But I’ve noticed my pants are tighter. I know I’m not eating great.
I know I’m not fat. But I know I’m not being healthy. I also know I’m not toned and I don’t like that. Not running has messed me up.
But today? I was a fatty. And I’m putting it in cold hard written word so that I’ll keep myself in check.
If I was running? I could care less. In fact when I’m running I do eat a lot. But I also used to run a lot. Luckily I have a really good metabolism.
I’m not running and I hardly think that one mile walk I did burned off more than the Coke I just drank. If I’m lucky.
I’m embarrassed to say what I’ve eaten but I guess that’s why MyFitnessPal works. Accountability and a big fat slap in your face to show you how bad you’re eating.
Enough babbling. Here’s what I ate today:
*5 donuts (throughout the day)
*a Wendy’s Jr. Cheeseburger Deluxe
*a tortilla with avocado
*2 tortillas with mozzarella cheese
*a giant cheeseburger with chili and onion rings
So….yeah. I need to cut the crap. Why did I eat like that? Why not.
Obviously not ok. So I need to get back on the MyFitnessPal wagon. I’m gonna start making coffee at work again (less fatty than buying a latte). Make my oatmeal for breakfast and bring lunch. When I don’t bring lunch I buy yummy comfort food downstairs. Full of fat. I need to start chugging the water. Bringing snacks and snacking better.
No more. Done.